Another Cycle, Another Dollar

Cycle number 2 has officially started! Well, it started a couple of days ago I guess, but this is when I'm writing about it.

I'm feeling good about this cycle so far. I'm trying to keep my thought positive.

Last night I started my clomid, which is the same dose as last cycle, whoo hoo! The NP at my office had talked about cutting it because I had had 3 follies with a fourth that wanted to make it, but the good doctor doesn't think cutting the dose is a good idea. Bring on the follies and the hot flashes!!

At this point I am guessing that my IUI will be next Friday, just because that's how my cycle days landed last month. We are using the same donor, which I feel good about, because he really was our top choice, and I think he's a really good candidate.

Downside of this cycle... I am going to be away at camp with my fifth graders the week I supposed to test!! I'm thinking that each month there will be something even crazier that I'll have to do each cycle while I'm waiting to find out. First, a trip to visit family, now a trip to camp... Any suggestions for next month? Maybe a trip overseas?

Husband and I dealt better than either of us suspected with the last cycle not working out. I figured we'd be a wreck for the weekend, but really, we just weren't. By Sunday I was pissed about the money we had spent, but that's about it. We are both just stoked to actually have a chance at this, so it didn't totally destroy us that it didn't happen the first time.

I really don't have much else going on, fertility related that is. I am thinking about volunteering for RESOLVE, which is the National Infertility Association, as a peer group leader, but I'd probably not be able to do it until I was done with student teaching in November.

Soooo, I guess we'll see what pans out. Right now I'm just taking things one day at a time, and trying not to think to far ahead about what could or should happen in the cycle. I'm hoping, wishing and praying that this will be the cycle that we get our bfp, but I'm not counting on it, or getting my hopes up.

Bye Lovelies!

Nothing Like...

A fresh batch of failure to start off a weekend.

I got my beta results back... not pregnant.... cue the two day pity party.

IUI #2 here we come.

I am happy that I get to stop my progesterone... the non stop headache has not been pleasant.

Hopefully AF will show so we can get the next round started.

Umm Duh.

I pretty much forgot to mention the highlight of the past week.

Last week while I was in New Jersey I got to make a little side trip to see my good friend Kate!!!

Kate is one of the IF girls that has kept me sane for the last year and a half. She's one of my every day talk to-ers. I'd probably have gone totally crazy, and spent $1000 on wasted pregnancy tests without her there to keep me positive, and keep me from testing at 2dpo :D



Oh, on the same subject. The planning for this trip totally made me feel like a fifteen year old. Do you remember how that was? I felt like I was right on the edge of having my independence, but my mom still wanted to "keep an eye on me". For one, I was forbidden to drive the car. Hi... I'm 23, married, and maybe pregnant... I just completed around of semi-intense fertility treatments. Anyway, once I got there it was also a bit like this, as my mom and Kate met, we ate lunch, and then I was given like 3 hours to hang out with my friend. It was quite the experience in humiliation.

On the upside, Kate and I had a great time trucking around on water taxis, looking at old homes we wish we could purchase, and sweating our butts off until we stopped and ate some delicious gelato. Oh, well, the gelato came 2 hours after a fabulous seafood lunch, and an hour before the fudge... it was a bit of a food adventure which is fine. by. me.

Thanks Kate for showing me around, and just being awesome in general!

Updatey Update

Today I am 12dpo, yippee!!

I was out of state for the last week, so I didn't post, even though I thought about it quite a lot, and actually wrote a really long entry that I'll post here in a couple of days.

So, everything is going fine I guess, lol.

I would say that I've had pregnancy symptoms, but any symptom I think I may have had, or may be having is easily explained away by the crazy dose of progesterone I've been on since 48 hours after the IUI.

On the subject of the progesterone... it sucks. That's pretty much all I can say about it, haha. It's the worst part of the cycle by far (unless I get a negative blood test, then that'll be the worst). Why is it so bad you ask? Oh, because I am putting these oral pills...well, not in my mouth, I'll tell you that much. Twice a day I put one of these lovely yellow pills as close to the possible fetus as it can get... if you get my drift. My body actually seems to be absorbing quite a bit of this lovely little, side effect riddled, hormone. The rest it just spits back out...awesome.

So, these two days, Wednesday and Thursday, are the tough ones. The ones where I am going crazy about finding out if our $800 investment paid off, or if I'll be looking forward to the whole crazy experience again.

I don't really have too much else to say, except that of the many crazy things I've started doing to up my chances this cycle, I'd have to say that holding my laptop down by my knees as to not overheat the possible baby is the craziest, and the one that's hurting my arms the most.

Bye Lovelies.