Let me take you back to Wednesday. I slept like crap on Tuesday night, so I woke up in the morning and tested...which I am normally so against...
lo' and behold
Cue the overwhelming happiness! I was shocked and excited. I silently screamed for about 5 minutes, then I told the Husband. He too was very excited.
Next step, my 14dpo beta, on Thursday
Cue the total freak out!! AHHHHH! Lovely high number!
This is where it gets crazy. I went in on Saturday for my 16dpo beta. They of course were backed up at the lab so I didn't get the results until last night.
:( That was the worst thing I had ever heard... why would that happen??
That is just adding insult to injury. A miscarriage to infertility. Why? And why did we tell our parents before the second beta. I wanted to kick myself.
Today I went in for another beta. I spent most of the day between feeling numb and crying. Husband was destroyed. We were so confused.
Now we are still just confused.... 371, 310, 360...
I don't know what's going on. I know there are a couple of options. I know we are not out of the woods. I will most likely have another beta on Wednesday.
I want to be happy about this. I want to know this will work out, but it's not starting out well. I am mentally preparing myself for a miscarriage, while still hoping and praying that things will work out and that in 8 months we will be parents.
I will update you (and by you I mean the literal one person who reads this... even though I talk to you every day anyway) when I know more.
LOL... ohhhh life... ohhhh infertility... ohhhh insanity.
Word of the day:
Infersanity: /n/ The insanity brought on by infertility.